my journey

Sitting here in the front dining foyer of the Apollo hotel in Amsterdam in relative comfort looking through the windows to a cold blustery day, the boats in the canal outside the hotel rocking with the wind and the waves as long boats go past. People rugged up and with umbrellas as they walk and more often ride past the window going to and from wherever they have to. I have a sense of overwhelming gratitude to life. How did I get here? Was it sheer luck, did I earn it or was it just meant to be? On my 4th Whiskey on ice I can't help but think about life and I guess the enormity of it. My beautiful wife Teresa who I think deserves this experience more than I has battled through the school spring fair today, setting up, working, then packing up her stall at the end of it. She has dealt with compounding work and 3 busy children for so long now without me I don't know how she does it, even illness doesn't stop her! Amsterdam? Unreal? Never did I think I would be here, alone! I've seen so much today that it is alittle overwhelming to think that right now at home it is 1.30 in the morning and I know Teresa and the kids are fast asleep safe in their beds trusting that I am ok. I guess over the last 6 yrs of me travelling like I do for work they are used to it. Do I like it that they are used to it? No. Do I wish I was there with them? With every cell in my body. Do I wish I didn't have this opportunity to travel like I do, no way! Am I thankful for the guys I work with and the company I work for? Hell yea! Does all this do my head in? Definitely! (I keep on having to adjust the number of Whiskey's I am having....)I guess opportunities are given to us so that we learn and grow from them. I am meant to be here now, that's all! If I had a million dollars in the bank would I bring those who I love over here to experience this? Most definitely!!! Missing everybody XX